You are allowed to change your mind. You have to change your mind sometimes. Life brings about unanticipated circumstances, unique opportunities and unforeseen consequences, and you have to change your mind to accommodate these altercations. It's ok. It's ok to change your mind. And even though you shouldn't have to justify why you changed your mind (sometimes we have no explanation other than going on a gut feeling), sometimes rationalizing why you changed your mind can grant you a deeper sense of self know.
I am doing my YTT. I said previously that it wasn't an option at current but I am now enrolled to start in less than two weeks time. I could not be more ecstatic, excited, curious and appreciative. I feel ready and equipped to begin this transformational journey. I feel prepared to venture down this new avenue of life. Part of me feels like this experience is a way home. And by home I don't mean physically getting back to Ontario, to my family and friends. I mean it feels like I'm set to journey back home to who I am truly meant to be. I feel as though this experience is going to bring me closer to Robyn Elizabeth. I am going to re-discover my childhood innocence, I am going to learn that what has happened in my past was necessary for me to get to this point, I am going to delve deeper into my subconscious than ever before and subsequently understand my intentions for both positive and non-constructive habits. I am on route to become a better person. And that is something I will always vote yes for - even if it means changing my mind.
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